Jus when the sun shines up my life, a cloud has to pass it by. It seems like nothing is going right, right now. Our apartments only want to continue having us live here on a month-to-month basis. The lady in
my house doesn`t want to leave until next
May, which is when her lease is up. So we might have to move into another apartment which will be around
$18OO jus to move in with deposits & everything. And we would only stay there for 6 months !! So we would have to waste all that money for no reason. I`m not doing so well at my job, I keep messing up on shit and they wrote me up today and threatened to fire me. I have
never been fired. I have always been promoted. It jus seems like when one thing goes right, another goes wrong. I can never catch my breath before I fall. I know no matter what
Timothy & I will always be in it together but I know if I get fired he will be so disappointed in me. Of course, I am going to try my very best to do everything I can to stay but if I have made mistakes in the past week that haven`t been caught yet, and they catch them, I am going to be fired and I am jus so worried. There are
no positions available on Monster.com that I would even
consider. I prayed to God the other night that he would jus help me to stop messing up. Jus forgive me for whatever I did to deserve all of this shit going wrong.
On the bright side, I guess, I got a new phone. It`s a Motorizr, Here. It`s pretty effing cute. Mine is red.
Like I said, nothing is going right. Now Timothy & I are at it. We haven`t been getting along much at all lately and I don`t know why. It seems like every time we talk we start arguing about the stupidest shit. No relationship is perfect but I just hate this so much. We never used to fight this much. We would argue about small things but not FIGHT. And he would come in and say sorry and we would kiss and make up. But now it drags on and I even threatened to go stay at my mom`s tonight. I shouldn`t have to do that. Not with someone I`m going to marry.
Anyway I`m going to go lay down. Even though supposidley I don`t work hard anyway and I`m not appreciated so I shouldn`t even be tired.
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